I wanna be loved.

 Saying this like a stupid ass, I just wanna be loved. I don't know if I've repeated saying that. But I still feel no one loves me, even if they seem to do. It makes me feel torn, and I want it to go away. But I seem to never grasp the feeling of being loved even if it is "there". 

I don't want a lot of friends, but I have close ones currently because I was forced to socialize with them. Drugs will not help me, anti-depressants are never an option, they just scare me.

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