Burnt out, just burnt out. I work myself up too much, and I fucked it up. All the hobbies I liked are gone to nothing, and it's not good. Why, just why. So dumb, I despise my workaholism.
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I still hate what I did. I still regret what I did. This may be nothing. But I atone what I have done. God, forgive me, for what I must do. A useless form in this world. Oxygen to waste right here. Rotting, just rotting. I am unable to connect. If I get rid of the piece of the puzzle, no worries. The space won't be a matter for the ones around it. I promise you, I'm being honest.
I'm not proud, I'm so afraid, I'm so unappreciative with the things I have. Developed pessimism which accounts for why all of this hurts no matter how big, no matter how small. My likes are things some of those I rely on would tear me apart for. I can't come out about the things that will never see the light of day, like being someone of the furry community, which anyone who is a non-furry would know that that would mean I'm some weirdo and freak, a not normal member of society, maybe even acclaimed to be a zoophile just because I like anthropomorphized animals despite the community itself disliking them a whole damn lot. Not everyone can like everything, but that doesn't mean I have to be kicked in the skull for liking something so harmless, so small that becomes big just because humanity hates it a whole lot, but what can I do? I just want to like, leave them and stop hiding forever, but at the same time I am guilty of cutting ties unexpectedly despite them n...
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